I daydream too much.
In those daydreams,
I think too much.
There are too many thoughts
floating around in my mind,
too many things I want to say
but can’t quite put into words.
So I’ve decided
to try to write some of them down.
Before they disappear.
腦筋動得太快，
想得太快，
很容易就忘記上一秒的思緒，
忘記上一秒得到的結論。
My thoughts move too quickly,
faster than my words can follow.
By the time I try to catch one,
another has already taken its place.
And sometimes I wonder
how many thoughts
I have already lost.
How many conclusions
I once understood
but can no longer remember.
Maybe that is why I write.
To catch them
before they disappear.
I’m not quite Taiwanese enough.
Not quite American enough.
I’m a mixture of both.
A hybrid.
Sometimes I try to deny
one of my identities.
Sometimes I like one
more than the other.
Sometimes I want to belong
to one side completely.
Sometimes I wonder
why I ever thought
I had to choose.
歧視自己人的事情到處都有。
而我遇到最多的，
不是在國外，
而是在自己的家鄉。
🙂
Maybe that is another thought
I almost forgot.
Or maybe
it is one I’m still trying to understand.
